I could never find 1 spot in school that was consistantly safe for me to retreat to for any period of time. Instead I had multiple spots all over where I’d retreat to for short time frames. If one wasn’t available, I could move on to the next one without getting too upset.
Friend, I’m sending you hugs, and if you’re open to it I’d strongly recommend building meditation skills. Therapy is a must if you want to understand why you feel this way, but meditation can help a lot in the meantime. I wish you the best, and hope you find somewhere safe to breathe today ❤️
There’s a lot of “all or nothing” thinking here. Have you tried talking this out with a therapist you trust at all?
Wishing you the best, friend, from someone who’s actively fixing their life before I turn 45. It’ll take time to get there. I’m totally enjoying the reduced stress, anxiety and depression as I work on it.