I think your level of happiness is completely reasonable in this case.

People only caring if it personally affects them is a part of how it got this bad in the first place.

My wife and I were thinking about this last week. We were wondering about personal security. At least where we live, they like to make a spectacle of the big winner with photo op, publish name and how town, etc. We wondered if that would invite trouble for the winner. For instance, would people try to break in expecting you to have valuables? Would you be a target for kidnapping and ransom? What about your family or close friends, would someone kidnap them to get you to pay ransom on? Even if you immediately spent it all, would people still try, not knowing it’s all gone? I’m with you, I’d keep it as secret as I could.

You could leave life right now. Let that determine what you do and say and think. - Marcus Aurelius

Oof, this one hit hard for me. I’ve been working a lot of hours lately and I need to start putting my actual life as a priority. Thanks for this.

Yep, it’s been so long that I feel awkward about reaching out, which makes me delay and avoid reaching out, which makes it even longer since we last talked, which just makes me even more awkward about reaching out. It’s a vicious circle…

This is exactly how I feel. I have so many things to do that sometimes I get overwhelmed and end up doing nothing. Then I beat myself up that I just wasted that time (intentionally doing nothing is better than doing nothing out of anxious paralysis). Even when I try to intentionally relax, I find myself recounting all the things I “should” be doing instead. I’ve learned that I need to stop shouldding on myself. I still do it, but at least I’m aware of it and watch out for it now.

My grandma hid in a nearby woods with a small candlelight and gave treats to whoever dared approaching.

Fuckin What?! I love it, it sounds awesome, but can you imagine, “strange woman lures kids into the forest with candy”, that would never happen today.

Didn’t you just post this same thing an hour ago? https://lemm.ee/post/737971

If it’s done right, coconut cream pie is my favourite for sure. But raspberry is a close second.